Loneliness

I write about the feelings of solitude... I am starting to feel...

Questions suddenly jam my head from thinking straight... What will I do after? Is there a way to connect to people from across the country? Will the friends here stay forever?

Unjamming these stuck queries that I may think well... Just be in the now. :D

Enjoy... Life has been continuously offering me good, either as it is or in the guise of a bad break up...

Cry, feel, enjoy... Harness the energy to create... To create more. Joy, Laughter, Love from pain, hate and sorrow.

BE! and let go for I do not know. :D

Enough said!

where things are simply enough...

Believing in past lives...

I BE-LIVE that I have been rich...

I BE-LIVE that I have been poor...

I BE-LIVE that I have been into great relationships...

I BE-LIVE that I have been through worst...

I BE-LIVE that I have been a straight guy...

I BE-LIVE that I of course, have been a straight girl...

That's why I BE-LIVE that right now...

Where things feel and is in the MIDDLE...

I can eat...

I don't have a car...

I can cry about flings and MUs...

I can savor the AUs...

(suddenly, Madonna's Borderline plays... hahaha! listening to 80s for an event)

I have been through either a guy or a girl's highs and lows...

I BE-LIVE this lifetime teaches me about being the MIDDLE...

NO. NOT MEDIOCRITY.

But just saying that where ever I am...

It's simply enough...

And when things feel not enough...

I'll DO IT...

I'll follow my heart's desire to create and BE more...

A morning of hopes...

An afternoon of work...

An evening of prayer and again, telling myself...

I am simply enough... :D

destreate

a deep sense of something.. something that's troubling me... i move into mission...

I write... feelings of frustration and guilt...

of sadness and loss of hope... it looms... GOD was indeed so magnificent in His creations... I cannot imagine... I cannot conquer... I am human... I am being... Though this being of infinite power cannot comprehend world's, GOD's infinite plan... it remains a mystery...

A mystery of divine will... the will that incarnated one God, to experience the human's mystery... to experience faith...

Faith, not seeing... just believing... doing things blindly... for what is inner produces outer... results based on love... on hate... on feelings... on commitment... on anger... translated to spending the whole day with someone, wanting to kill someone...

Fear, seeing... seeing through preconceptions... seeing through what will be... foresight... GOD has this... fear... strike terror, strike floods, for if people did not die nor experience wrath... they will not change... a foresight... fear turning to floods, quakes...

Love, seeing blindly... for whatever matters... sanity is intact... but love, makes us choose insanity instead... a strong feeling... an inner desire... love that brought a God to earth to save it...

Learning... GOD learned? of course... Infinite wisdom... infinite... everything... from wrath and hate to love and salvation... from the Father to the Son...

Hope... The real 3D begins... Where is the Holy Spirit? I don't see Him... Faith... that will let me see the last of the Christian Gods...

Where is He? It's in me... Do I see? Faith. I can love, stay with you the whole night... Fear? I want to be with him... I don't want to be alone? Yes... I don't. See yet not... Fear creates our reality...

Did GOD also want companionship? That's why He created mankind..? Fear creates reality... Love molds it into what we want to feel... experience...

Inventions, innovations... help mankind... love them... Hate, destruction, war... Hope to recreate... instill fear... recreate... remold... where is faith?

From creation... GOD's faith that we won't betray Him... 'til destruction... Hoping to find a new place... a new sanctuary... a new self...

HUMANS are indeed programmed... to self destruct and be recreated...

by faith, hope and love...