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a deep sense of something.. something that's troubling me... i move into mission...

I write... feelings of frustration and guilt...

of sadness and loss of hope... it looms... GOD was indeed so magnificent in His creations... I cannot imagine... I cannot conquer... I am human... I am being... Though this being of infinite power cannot comprehend world's, GOD's infinite plan... it remains a mystery...

A mystery of divine will... the will that incarnated one God, to experience the human's mystery... to experience faith...

Faith, not seeing... just believing... doing things blindly... for what is inner produces outer... results based on love... on hate... on feelings... on commitment... on anger... translated to spending the whole day with someone, wanting to kill someone...

Fear, seeing... seeing through preconceptions... seeing through what will be... foresight... GOD has this... fear... strike terror, strike floods, for if people did not die nor experience wrath... they will not change... a foresight... fear turning to floods, quakes...

Love, seeing blindly... for whatever matters... sanity is intact... but love, makes us choose insanity instead... a strong feeling... an inner desire... love that brought a God to earth to save it...

Learning... GOD learned? of course... Infinite wisdom... infinite... everything... from wrath and hate to love and salvation... from the Father to the Son...

Hope... The real 3D begins... Where is the Holy Spirit? I don't see Him... Faith... that will let me see the last of the Christian Gods...

Where is He? It's in me... Do I see? Faith. I can love, stay with you the whole night... Fear? I want to be with him... I don't want to be alone? Yes... I don't. See yet not... Fear creates our reality...

Did GOD also want companionship? That's why He created mankind..? Fear creates reality... Love molds it into what we want to feel... experience...

Inventions, innovations... help mankind... love them... Hate, destruction, war... Hope to recreate... instill fear... recreate... remold... where is faith?

From creation... GOD's faith that we won't betray Him... 'til destruction... Hoping to find a new place... a new sanctuary... a new self...

HUMANS are indeed programmed... to self destruct and be recreated...

by faith, hope and love...